I'm backkkk

HIIII,

Wow, so I checked and my last post was in like May 2015?!?! I surprisingly still got some views on some posts throughout the year which is cool. I didn't actually forget about this blog, I just really got so into school, writing a blog post was the last thing on my mind. So here is a little (long) update about my life the past one year. Not sure if anyone even cares but then again this would also be a way for me to reflect on everything that has happened.

Alright let's begin with uni. So I started my degree program in fashion designing and textiles in Lasalle College Of The Arts for those who don't know (although it's pretty much all over my social media coz I'm always complaining about it HAHA). And may I just say, what a fucking ride it has been. Designing course is seriously no joke. I used to think, " how hard can it be?" "I'm pretty ok with art and creative to some extent and I love fashion I'm sure I will nail this" BUT NOOOOOOOO!!! This is not just drawing and creating you know, it is really so much more. Ok let's start with sewing. I used to have this image in my mind about fashion students being all cool with their measuring tape and sewing like a boss and having the best garments out and looking all perfect. But this is just fantasy guys. Real life fashion students life is nothing that glamourous. Pattern drafting requires so much accuracy, patience, logical thinking, thinking on your feet and BEING GOOD AT MATHS OMG!! All of which I don't have. Then there is sewing. If you think sewing is a child's game, then you could not be far from wrong. I used to see tailors in india sew with their eyes close and only after sewing myself have I realized what an incredible skill that is and how much talent and practice you need to be perfect at it. One year in and I'm still not close to "good" for sewing. Then there is drawing and digital classes so you learn basic human proportions, faces, shading, using different mediums because in designing drawing is your language. If you can't draw properly, be it digital or hand drawn, you cant communicate your ideas at all. Drawing was fun to be honest, but a lot of work and my teacher was seriously so hard to please. I have never seen someone as talented as her and I really admire her work and she really made things so easy and manageable, but boy was she hard to please. And the pressure is real when you see your coursemates being soooooo extremely talented when it comes to sewing or drafting or drawing. And a lot of them even had experiences before. And then there was me with 0 experiences except for the noob drawings I did now and then. I really wondered how I even got accepted with all these students. It felt both nice and sad. Then there was the actual designing process itself. I used to think designing is just you know, you sit, think about what you want, draw it out and TADAAA! but no...that is not what designing is hahaha. You have a journal and you do pages and pages of research and then you need a lot of boards like moodboard, details board, market board, all these together makeup your final designs at the end. I remember in semester 1 I was so extremely lost. I just did research for the sake of doing something but in semester 2 I finally realized how to do meaningful research and it really helps in coming up with meaningful designs. 
Overall, I have learnt A LOT in this one year. It's amazing to see how far I have come. From someone who took 2 weeks to learn how to just thread a sewing machine, to someone who can sew a whole garment. From someone who did not even know how to draw human figures or faces, to someone who can finally draw any illustrations she want (even though it isn't perfect yet). From someome who designed out of the air, to someone who can do meaningful research and strongly reflect it in her designs (this one not I say ah HAHAHA, I swear my teacher wrote it in my feedback form), from someone who couldn't even draw one straight line using the pen tool on illustrator, to someone drawing loads of technical flats digitally and really I can go on and on about the areas I have improved. My results? Well they aren't the best to be honest, they're alright but they show my improvement and my brother in law always tells me one thing "ask yourself where would you rate yourself in terms of quality in the beginning and where would you rate yourself now. If you have rated yourself higher now, then that is what all that matters" wise words wise words.

In terms of friends, I made a bunch of friends in my first year. I was blessed with such a nice class and nice people. I've heard fashion course students can get quite bitchy and competitive but honestly everyone, though they were competitive, they really helped anyone who needed. No one had the "why must I help and make them do better" kind of attitude. We would stay until 10-11 pm at sewing room or textile room, someone's laptop will be blasting music and everyone would be whining about work left and doing their own work and now and then laughing at the stupid things someone would say and do because they're too tired to function. Good times Good times. We will probably be continuing the same thing 2nd and 3rd year but we will have more people since the graduated diploma kids would join us in year 2 degree program and also we all will get separated into our majors. Speaking of major, I chose to major in textile designing. Textile was the only class I truly enjoyed since the beginning of the year. I find it really fun, dying, printing and second year onwards we will learn things like embroidery and knitting and weaving and I'm quite excited for those classes. 

Well that is pretty much for how my life was in year 1. Holidays have started now and I'm kind of figuring out what to do. I was planning of interning but I can't since I'm leaving for SF on the 25th May. So super excited about that because I cannot wait to see my sister and brother in law again and see their new home, and go to LA see disney land and universal studios and buy all the cheap drugstore makeup from target. OH WHICH REMINDS ME, this whole year, I have gotten so into makeup. I never realized how fun it can be. I used to watch makeup videos since like I was 15 but I only started using it a bit when I was 18? And now I have this some what big collection of makeup and the days I feel sad, I just glam myself and it's like therapy I swear. I have a beauty and makeup account on instagram @beautyinthepocket_ if you are interested. Also my friends and I have a beauty and fashion blog (www.bellera.squarespace.com) WHICH is a bit dead now but it will soon be on pretty soon now that our holidays are approaching. 

Well that...is pretty much it actually. I don't know what else to talk about. I was thinking of doing a part time job but I'm not sure if anyone is willing to hire me immediately for a month? But it would be great if they do because I have nothing to do at home. I also want to start watching some new series. I'm also planning to hone my photography skills now that I have some free time because I've always enjoyed that to some extent. We had a short photography class at school and I had a lot of fun taking pictures of our model. I enjoy taking pictures of people. Hopefully I can get to do some makeup and photography on some of my friends if they let me. That would be damn fun. But yeah let's see. 

So that is it for my 2:30 AM post. Really thanks for reading if you bothered to hahaha. Oh I also have askfm that has been dead since ages but I wouldn't mind using it now if anyone is interested to ask anything. I'm so free I actually wouldn't mind answering ANYTHINGGG. Here is the link

https://ask.fm/teedee1696

Anyway, I'll be back soon. FOR SURE THIS TIME not gonna go missing for another 1 year. HAHA

Byeeeeee and goodnight <3